Somebody Save Me

Somebody, save me from the horrors of my own life,
Keep me floating even when I'm weighed down,
Keep me breathing even when I don't want to
Keep me sane when I'm loosing my mind

I need someone to keep me grounded on those days,
When all I can do is fly away,
Out of my body and mind,
Out of this world until I dissapear

Spinning, spinning out of control,
Slowly wasting away my mind,
All the pictures flashing by,
Images of all my past blunders

I can't get away from this walking nightmare,
All the mistakes I have made,
Laid out for the world to see and read,
While I sit by the bed and pray for somebody to save me

Torn

I'm torn between the edges,
Of my frayed imagination,
I continue to devise wonderful schemes,
As a way to tell you the truth,
But everytime, a lose string unravels,
And all the work comes floating down

I almost stormed in today,
Angry at father for not trusting me,
To know when I need help,
And I almost told you
But as soon as I threw the door open,
I knew; the moment was not right

I want to tell you so bad,
I can tell complete strangers,
But as soon as your around,
I make sure my sleeves are down and my socks are up
Because I'm so damn ashamed
How are you going to react when you know your daughter hurts herself?

What Do You Want From Me?

I need you right now,
I need your help understanding everything,
Understanding my feelings,
And emotions,
But you aren't here

You didn't sign up for this,
I know that
But you did say the deadly word,
Relationship
And that word comes with strings attached

You claimed you didn't want a random hook-up,
But it seems now,
That you wanted nothing more,
Than exactly that
And now you have left me alone

It may not be a big deal for you anymore,
But I am still a virgin,
And every new thing that is introduced,
Is huge for me
And you introduced something massive

Then you ditched me
I'm trying to figure you out;
Was it her?
Was it me?
Was it you?

You left so many questions,
And no answers
And while your smell continues clinging,
My heart keeps on weeping,
For it is not love, but lust I feel

And you have left me unsated
And you left me with a hiatus,
Which may never end
So tell me now,
What do you want from me?

Toxic

I'm a tiny minnow, struggling against the powerful current
And I'm all alone.
My friends and school are gone,
My sanity is becoming lost,
I'm becoming lost
They make me lose myself,
And be someone I'm not

He makes me do things I would never normally do,
And he makes it feel good,
Like it's right,
And expected
Then he leaves,
And forgets I exist

Sometimes I forget I exist
When I'm sitting below those quivering trees,
Surrounded by strangers,
Refusing food because I am too scared to eat here,
I feel more alone than I would feel if I were the only person left

People do not notice the lonely girl like I thought they would,
They ignore her
Ignoring is so much worse than making fun of her
I feel alone,
And the one person who I thought would be here,
Leaves me after I let him touch me,
Almost like I am toxic,
And bad thing that should not be allowed to spread