Emotion Martini

Nothing describes the way I'm feeling.
I've tried them all.
Empty.
Helpless.
Immature.
Useless.
Depressed.
Suicidal.
Unwanted.
Unloved.
Confused.
Lost.
Angry.
Hormonal.
Sad.
Anxious.
Ugly.
Not a single one can describe my feelings.
Mix them all up,
Make an emotion martini.
Shake it up
Throw in an olive
Add some random confidence.
Is it normal?
I can't feel this many things.
I feel sick.
I feel like exploding.
I feel like dying.
I feel like running.
What if I ran?
How far could I get?
Where would I go?
Would I be happier there?
Probably.
Is this depressing?
Yes.
Is this helping me?
Sort of.
Is this confusing me?
A little.
Is this some what pointless?
Of course.