Walking Away From Everything

Today is the day I question reality
I question dreams
And what is real or part of my imagination
Was it all a dream?
Were the happiest moments of my life all in my head?
Or is this hell the dream?
Or nightmare?
I want to look into the bowl of colors
Only to sit up and gaze into the brown swirl
Every morning
Like I do there
But here I'm alone
With everything that is less than amazing
With red dots and flaming hair
I feel like a part of me is missing
And I can't find it.
Or it doesn't want to find me

To say he loved me was cruel
To say that there was no reason was evil
To say it was a mistake was harsh
But to look at me like that is a torture so profound,
That my heart cat bear much more

I'm lonely here on this ice planet
Where I question reality
And walk away from everything