When I Miss You

We say back and forth,
Repetitions of I miss you,
I love you,
I can't live without you by my side
But I don't believe you
If you missed me,
You would have come back,
After that awful night,
Which started with me crying on the floor,
And ended with me crying in bed, naked,
Huddling into the sheets,
Hoping if I press hard enough,
Maybe I'll dissipate
I know that scared you
Even though you held me,
And wiped away my tears with gentle kisses,
You were worried,
That in my attempt to hide from the world,
You would be pushed away too
And so you've been avoiding me,
You still text and make kissy faces,
But you never come over anymore,
Or watch a movie with me
All you do is hide,
Behind those beautiful 'Miss You's

Endlessly Sick of it All

Endless rushes of rivers,
Streaming by, never stopping,
Endless, endless, the torture goes on,
The same room,
The same people,
The same putrid smell,
The same constant beep,
The same continuous drip,
The same excuses
It never breaks from this routine,
Maybe we are lucky enough to get a break,
For longer than two months next time,
Before she back,
Lying in that stupid,
Goddamned,
Fucking,
Hospital bed.

Teardrops on the Floor

Secrets are spilling out,
And before I can help it,
I'm being honest

You make me see,
The evil in my ways,
And feel the pain

I've been keeping it down for so long,
That I'm immune to hurt,
But your making me feel again

Sometimes, like tonight, the feel is not good,
But in the end,
You have helped me

And though there may be teardrops on my floor,
And mascara on my face,
You have helped to catch me, before I fall