Scared

I'm scared
They said it wouldn't change her,
But what if it does?
What if she forgets everything,
Not just the short term stuff?
What if she forgets us?
What is she forgets those rainy days,
And the boats,
Made from the leaves,
That mommy couldn't touch,
That way,
She couldn't ruin our fun.
What if she forgets about
Chasing Garett with the Barbie,
Or seeing who could swing higher?
What if she forgets she even has a sister?

Never Ending

This crazy shit,
It never seems to end,
Every day,
Something new and terrible,
More terrible than the last terrible thing,
Comes up

Why does she insist on torturing us so?
Why does she have to get all the attention,
She can possibly get.
I'm forced to do what I always do,
Hide myself,
So she can get better.
At least for a little while.

The Fear of Loneliness

I'm scared of being alone,
It's my worst fear,
My scariest nightmare,
And my most terrfiying realization.
Some days,
I'm alone.
On others,
I'm surrounded.
Then there are days where everything is perfect,
Where everyone is there,
Right when I want them to be.
But those rarely happen.

Open Sea

Do I stay in the familiar place?
Where the rocks have been smoothed,
By the constant tides,
Where life is delicate and plentiful?
Or do I swim out,
To the open sea,
Where questions and answers await,
Where I can discover,
Ad learn?
Do I want to risk leaving,
When I know I won't be able to come back?